The government side and my side, on April 11 events

The government version in very short words (and probably twisted, because I'm against the government) about the events of April 11, 2002 and the days after, comes as it follows (if there’s any mistakes about the following version, any government supporter its free and more than welcome to comment below about it).
1) The government version
It was a coup, the poor Chavez president was taken out of his power and the evils of the empire, supported by United States and with Carmona leading it all, destroyed the democracy with no mercy. On April 13, the people of Venezuela realize of this obvious abuse and came out in mass to the streets to ask for their president Chavez, constitutionally elected, to come back to power. The imperialist didn't had other choice but surrender and letting him come back to power. About the killings of April 11 it is quite clear that more government supporters died that day that on the opposition side and was one police of Caracas called Metropolitana (for that time under jurisdiction of an opposition mayor) the responsible for the killings. The famous video that shows people with Chavez t-shirts shooting from a bridge is not people shooting against the demonstration from the opposition; its government supporters defending themselves of the Metropolitana police that was attacking them. Besides that, the only guilty of the few people who were killed from the opposition side are the opposition leaders who took that people with no conscience to the valley of death.
This is also the version that the international community follows like the Bible. Even on the press against the government you can read sentences like "the coup given against Chavez on 2002". But I'm not stupid enough to believe this whole version...
2) My version.
Yes, United States was perhaps the only country who supported Carmona's quick government. And to support a non democratic government on doubtful circumstances can't never be a smart choice.
Yes, the opposition members who wrote, read and signed the "Decreto Carmona" were clearly against the constitution. Yes, on April 13, many Chavez supporters (notice carefully that I put "Chavez supporters" instead of the "people of Venezuela" as I put on the previous, government version paragraph; this is because I'm not a Chavez supporter and that shouldn't make me any less part of the "people of Venezuela), and most of them from poor areas filled the streets asking for Chavez to came back to power.
About April 11, 2002 I have to say No. It disrespects the memory of the victims. I wrote this on the old entry about that day and I have to repeat it all over again: my brother saw the Chavez supporters on the bridge, and people on the roof, shooting against the demonstration of the opposition, that he was part of like I was. This time, I rather believe to my own brother, instead of a government that it has make me doubt way too much and not just on this matter. Forgive me for this personal and perhaps twisted decision.
The argument, that puts as the only guilty in charge the leaders of the opposition demonstration of the death because they let and suggest that demonstration to walk with no conscience to death, I also say No out loud. We didn't just follow the leaders of the opposition demonstration to the government palace like Le Bon blind sheeps. I was there. The screams for "Miraflores!" came from the crowd, and then we heard the plan to walk there from the leaders. Was a quick choice, was a major risk, who knows if this was the smartest choice but it was the choice of the crowd as It was later the choice of the leaders.

(Part II) The days after April 11 as I lived them

When we came back home we saw on the news many people from the Chavez government were chased and detained by the police in the middle of people screaming "Asesino! Asesino!" (Killer). We heard the "Asesino" scream many times during those days and afterwards. We didn't smiled or join the screams as we were watching them on TV; I didn't presence any of those events on the streets, none of them took place near by home.We felt anger, about that people that were hiding their faces with looks of fear, we had for certain that they were killers, we knew they were responsible of the events of just some hours before. But, I couldn't feel the difference between justice and revenge. It was the war. And I had to belong to one of the sides. But the madness was in both sides.
Today I'm ashamed of that behavior the opposition had and I can't run off the responsibility saying that "I wasn't there" because I don't know how my acting’s would have been if I had the opportunity of being there. Hence, that doesn't take any less guilt off the government because of the massacre of April 11, 2002.
On the night of April 12, 2002; my parents invited a few uncles to dinner and celebrate that Chavez wasn't the president anymore, or maybe just talk about what was happening and dry out a little bit all the confusion that filled the environment.
They discussed the "Decreto Carmona" and fall into the immediately logical conclusion: "This is not democracy, this is a government "de facto"". The promise was a dictatorship, this time from the right, but a dictatorship none the less. That was not a secret. "There’s no other way to fix things around here" - One relative say, while the rest of the people at the table were worried about it. "I don't know what happened, I don't know if this is democracy or not, but I do know now that the inversions will come like rice... Finally! So cheers for the government "de facto"!" - An uncle screamed, raising a glass of red wine. And the rest joined him: “For this government de facto!”.
If the night of April 11 was the night of the rumors, the afternoon and the night of April 12, and all day of April 13 were the explosion of rumors. And only a very few real news about the recent events: more killings, only United States and don't remember who else recognized the new government.
The rest, we just had the phone and the stories. According to those stories Chavez went to many places those hours. On the afternoon of April 13 we heard the worse rumor of all "Chavez is going back to power". But "How?" - We asked to ourselves. And that night we saw a smiling Chavez, hugging some ministers, and coming out to the "people's balcony" to give a speech to a red crowd.
It was over, we never knew if this was a coup, a dream, a world of confusion, a swindle or a combination of all that. We just turned off the TV. I hide in my sheets and cried in silence. I knew the rest of my family was crying as well in their beds.