And it’s killing everyone inside.... Sometimes we are having dinner and there's like two seconds of silence... like a funeral or something and you feel so empty and you know the table where you are eating, the people who's eating with you and that you love and you will give your life for them, are not going to be forever, maybe, they are not going to be there tomorrow or not in the same way.How can I put all that aside and keep studying? Sometimes I make it, sometimes I don’t, sometimes I stay in this space of nothing, this black hole that only make you wish that this nightmare ends soon.
A few days ago in class.... Democracy and Society.... what a name for a class in this days.... the professor entered the class and said: "I'm not going to wish you guys a Happy New Year, I'm only going to wish that the things you guys are learning here be usual for the times to come".
Then he told us things like the societies don’t just survive.... react... and I wonder how long are we going to survive... and then he told us about Hannah Arendt, a political thinker, she was a German Jewish during the Nazi regime and managed to get out of that hell....according to my professor, without the existence of Hitler, she was meant for be an outstanding philosopher of the German intellectuality of the 30's, but she had to live her years with more urgent things to solve.. like politics, and became a representation of her time. She just had to live that... and then he said... "So do we"... I felt a deep cold inside. So do we.